Watching heroes episode 4 of the new season. Titled ACCEPTANCE. Made me think. Remind me of something. Its just as simple as that. An acceptance.
Its all start with the greediness and denial that will lead us to a series of conflict and dilemma. We always think we deserve much more better. We think we are suppose to be somebody else. We think we good enough to have everything that we wanted. We think we are not belong here where we are all the while. We think we are so much bigger than what we are. We think because we want. Because we are greedy. We rather live in denial. We dont want to believe that we actually had the best of what we could ever have. We dont want to accept that the reality is much more worst than the expectation. Even worst compared to the perfect world we are always dreaming of.
Its just a simple acceptance to solve it all. Hiro Nakamura eventually did accept the way he is meant to be. Thats the point where all the calm and happiness start to arose in him. An acceptance. Well, i do feel so happy right now. I do feel so right. I do feel that calmness. Somehow I know I have already going through these ACCEPTANCE period. Have you???
After all, it was the only way huh!
Demang - there is nothing wrong in accepting the weaknesses of a person because we also do have weaknesses right?
~II pengomen yang diapproved selepas ni adalah pengomen yang ke 1000! mari kita lihat siapa yang bertuah.. ada hadiah misteri! hehehe.. II~
Why it is so hard to move on? Why the old one must always be the best one and no other?
You may think i am hypocrite by telling you this as i did faced the same problem before but hey, i’ve learnt a lot! Believe me, first thing you need to do to move on is to ACTUALLY MOVE ON. World will keep moving and time definitely are not waiting for you. There is no time for you to look back and keep waiting for the moment that already passed. Just let all the memories remain and enjoy creating a new one.
Its hard. Its not easy. OK, understand that. You think you had the best thing ever happen in your life before BUT, what made you think you will never have that kind of happiness anymore? In a different way, yes. Its not the same, yes. The situation may be different but still it can be another best thing happen or even better right? You are holding back your potential for a better life by keep seeking the almost impossible old awesome life.
Stop comparing what you have now and then. We definitely will not getting everything we wish for. Start accepting everything around you as it is. Appreciate all you have now in your life because you will know how precious all that when you lost them. God knows best what he think the best for you. Just keep a little faith and start believing that your best thing will happen to come again and again!
If you really love somebody just let him/her go.. when he/she come back to you, he/she is yours forever. True story.
Happy for him & her. May ALLAH bless them with happiness. Alhamdulillah.
By the time I wrote this, I have less than a week left before moving back to east coast. Going back to my comfort zone. Revert to the all familiar face, familiar place, familiar culture, familiar dialect.
I still remember the day I decide to leave all the familiar things back then. It was not easy, really. But then it turns to be the most meaningful journey I had in my life. Its like a new beginning for me. Better than ever. The ending was not pretty there back into time, but the lesson was immense. Its made me a better person with a different perspective.
3 years wrap up…
First year in Penang, was a transition period. Coming from a small town in a big state to such a big city in a small state made it so easy to fit in. All the fear and guts already long gone before I can even felt it with all the excitement of promising cute little Penang eclipse it all. I found it so interesting here in this new place. I love almost everything about it. So much fun, interesting place to explore. So many food to be tasted. Good culture and also good people to be involve with. Right away I knew that this is the right place to start over.
My second year in Penang mark the new level of my maturity. Once again we have been tested only now we were well equiped with all the necessary quality to hold it on stronger than ever. We have learnt so much back then and we manage to go through the second wave almost unscratch. Alhamdulillah. Then comes the most beautiful gift ever from Allah to seal the bond we preserved. The birth of Nur Atiqah Amani. Cute baby girl to complement our smart boy Muhd Izzuddin Zharfan. I am blessed with such a lovely family. Thank you Allah.
My third year in Penang was a revolution period. Ramadhan last year is the mark. No, couple of weeks before that. Most people call it a hidayah. Some people may call it a midlife crisis. For me, its more to finally be conscious again. I believe that everybody has somehow being approach by this hidayah from Allah only for us to deny that. Its may come in such a various way, even from a simple 15 to 20 minutes description of SIKSA DI PADANG MAHSYAR in TV programme Tanyalah Ustaz at TV9. The important thing is, what did you do when it comes approach you?
You can pretend like you don’t know anything and continue to live in denial or even take it easy as you really think you can live much much much more longer to entertain it later on your life. What if you only have a quarter of what you already have to live up for? Do you think you really have enough time to offset all the wrongdoing you do throughout the years gone by? If you have much more less left?
From that point, I decided to reset everything. Seeing things from a very different perspective now. Really hope I always in the guidance of Allah. I wish Allah will continue to show me the right path and do not turn me back into the darkness.
So here in Penang I found myself. I am sure Allah knows best what is best for me and I am confident that there is more to come waiting for me back there in my comfort zone. While it was a lot of fun here in Penang, deep down I agree that being there will suit me more with my new perspective.
just now i feel like crying. its like a button has been push. old button. emotional button. damn, out of sudden i realize that i am not that strong after all.
3 years back, still i can recall the feeling. the broken heart. the humiliating. the loneliness. its hurt. its really hurt. at one point i feel like i am nobody. useless. pathetic. they made me feel that way. they made me to accept that they all are the better person. perfect. smart. intelligent. knows everything. that there is no place for dreadful person like me.
fair enough. maybe its true there is no quality at all in me to offer. its time to rewrite a better story so i go. i accept the defeat.
” Marilah dik. Please. Tolong lah. “
” No lah kak. Tak mau campur lah. That time saya tinggal everything in good order kan. Bukan tangan saya semua tu. “
” Tolong lah dik. Akak memang dah tak tau nak buat macam mana. Awak mesti tau apa nak buat. “
” Kat sana semua orang pandai-pandai kak. Biar diorang settle lah. Lagipun dalam tangan diorang semua tu. “
” Siapa? Akak tak pandai! Jangan la macam tu. Akak merayu ni. Kira tolong lah. ”
” Ramai la yang pandai. Dulu saya ada, mana ada nak tanya apa pun. Tengok muka pun tak mau. Tak layak! Saya dah settle kan tanggung jawab saya, ok la kan? “
SMS – bukan kira dendam kak, tapi selagi ada DG & DZ kat situ memang saya segan lah. Saya ni nobody jer pada diorang. Insan hina. Diorang perfect. Sorry!
Demang – always knows that the person i care will suffer more than all the selfish unresponsible arrogant muppets!
they all still there at the very same standard.
a wiseman once told us that it is one of the hope that every single person of this place could benefit all the experiences gain to be a better person. so that everybody could improved throughout the time spent in this place. so that everyone could be well equip with all the necessary and relevant skills, knowledge or even expertise. so that anytime, if there is anywho who want to walk away from this place they can walk away as a better person. more competent.
after all these years, they or maybe she. she still at the very same stage when i left. still the very same person as she enter this place.
what a waste!
Demang – ‘person’ & ‘place’ may be wrongly used here.
appreciate all you have now before its gone. ITS ALWAYS WORKED THAT WAY!
Macam mana nak hidup tenang?
Senang, tukar cita2 daripada berjaya dalam hidup kepada berjaya di hari akhirat.
Senang, tukar keutamaan daripada mengumpul harta dan kemewahan kepada mengumpul pahala amalan dan ibadah.
Senang, tukar keasyikan daripada hiburan duniawi semata kepada segala bentuk wadah ilmu dan peringatan tentang hidup selepas mati.
Senang, tukar takat pengukur kejayaan daripada hidup senang kepada hidup diberkati Allah.
Senang, tukar kesungguhan daripada mengejar kemajuan serta pembangunan kepada kesungguhan menghidupkan kembali sunnah Rasulallah.
Apa guna taraf hidup yang tinggi bila semakin rendah kita pada pandangan Allah.
Apa guna kemajuan serta kecanggihan pembangunan bila dengan sekelip mata akan hancur dengan kuasa Allah.
Apa guna mengejar harta dan kekayaan bila satu pun tidak berguna di akhirat sana.
Demang – teringin ditemukan dengan malam yang lebih baik daripada 1000 bulan. moga kita keluar dari Ramadhan dengan penuh manfaat serta kebaikan, insyaallah.
Yemeni Biryani Chicken
Semalam berbuka di Khaleej Arabic Restaurant, Juru Auto City, Penang. Kebab kambing tu so-so saja. Nasi tu sedap. Ayam sangat lembut, standard nasi arab lah. My wife paling suka another meal tapi tak sempat nak snap. Minced lamb with spice, onion etc wrap up in lebanese bread. Tak ingat apa nama (G-06 dalam menu) tapi memang sedap. Inti dia tu ada rasa macam murtabak sket. All and all, enjoy the food so much but not the price lah! Huhuhu..
Also can go for their Ramadhan Buffet at RM35.00 per person (adult) / RM25.00 per person (child). Nak cari restoran ni senang saja, betul2 sebelah Maybank Juru Autocity.
Demang – craving for nasi arab since last month!