” Once you decide on what you really want, there are no more turning back. Everything after that is a quest. Whether or not you end up happy with your choice is not that important as long as you really know what you want in your life! After all, you know that you have the courage to stick on your choice rather than being push here and there without any clue on what you really want in life. “

#106 : Move On

Why it is so hard to move on? Why the old one must always be the best one and no other?

You may think i am hypocrite by telling you this as i did faced the same problem before but hey, i’ve learnt a lot! Believe me, first thing you need to do to move on is to ACTUALLY MOVE ON. World will keep moving and time definitely are not waiting for you. There is no time for you to look back and keep waiting for the moment that already passed. Just let all the memories remain and enjoy creating a new one.

Its hard. Its not easy. OK, understand that. You think you had the best thing ever happen in your life before BUT, what made you think you will never have that kind of happiness anymore? In a different way, yes. Its not the same, yes. The situation may be different but still it can be another best thing happen or even better right? You are holding back your potential for a better life by keep seeking the almost impossible old awesome life.

Stop comparing what you have now and then. We definitely will not getting everything we wish for. Start accepting everything around you as it is. Appreciate all you have now in your life because you will know how precious all that when you lost them. God knows best what he think the best for you. Just keep a little faith and start believing that your best thing will happen to come again and again!


ruang rindu


Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut Terbawa sungai ke ujung mata Dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta Menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada

Jalanku hampa dan ku sentuh dia Terasa hangat oh di dalam hati Ku pegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu Tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi

Tak pernah ku ragu dan s’lalu ku ingat Kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat Ku saat itu takut mencari makna Tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada

Kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja Semua ku t’rima apa adanya Mata terpejam dan hati menggumam Di ruang rindu kita bertemu


Work & Colleagues

While my early years in Kuantan will always be years to remember, still my final 2 years with Petikemas in Penang is the most important part of my working life. Eventually I manage to assemble a great team. A little flaw here and there but still as a team we made such a good blend. We were so close and united. We were too attached like a family. I am blessed actually to be given a chance to work alongside such a quality people..

Warm and committed Fai, very discipline and firm lady. A little naive though but in a sweet way. A very very very good friend and certainly not a good enemy to have! Hehehe ~ Energetic and pro active Diyana. Outspoken, confident, reliable and also obidient. Sometime seems like she enjoy to confront others but deep down I always know she meant it in a good way ~ Very organize lady in Eja. Also committed to work and her output always come neat and tidy. Despite no strong knowledge in accounts, she turn to be such a fast leaner. Easy to instruct and reliable ~ Bag of potential in Suhana, she is the strongest in term of knowledge. Also reliable and committed to work. Need to working hard on her self belief, communication and discipline. Very good assistant though. Not forget an easy going manager in Mr Chong. Funny and so understanding. Soft spoken Mr Sera. Slow and steady Rahizan. Niza the novel reader! Keh keh keh.. Always smile and smile and smile. Ali the runner. Always running away, no clue where he actually is! Good person though. 

All in all, what made all of them so special is that they all have respect on people. No need to deny that every single person have an issue against each other but the respect made all of them blended well to form such a happy working family. Like I always said, everybody have their own flaw/weakness but then it must be not a reason we cannot be friend with them. Try to focus on the quality they have so that together we can embrace and compliment each other.

After 3 years in Penang office, I know I have done a good job on every aspect. I came with objectives and I left with most of the objective accomplished. At least on certain part I left it much better than the thing was when I arrived. I have a total faith that they can continue everything that I have started and maintain the happy working environment there. All the best!



By the time I wrote this, I have less than a week left before moving back to east coast. Going back to my comfort zone. Revert to the all familiar face, familiar place, familiar culture, familiar dialect.

I still remember the day I decide to leave all the familiar things back then. It was not easy, really. But then it turns to be the most meaningful journey I had in my life. Its like a new beginning for me. Better than ever. The ending was not pretty there back into time, but the lesson was immense. Its made me a better person with a different perspective.

3 years wrap up…

First year in Penang, was a transition period. Coming from a small town in a big state to such a big city in a small state made it so easy to fit in. All the fear and guts already long gone before I can even felt it with all the excitement of promising cute little Penang eclipse it all. I found it so interesting here in this new place. I love almost everything about it. So much fun, interesting place to explore. So many food to be tasted. Good culture and also good people to be involve with. Right away I knew that this is the right place to start over.

My second year in Penang mark the new level of my maturity. Once again we have been tested only now we were well equiped with all the necessary quality to hold it on stronger than ever. We have learnt so much back then and we manage to go through the second wave almost unscratch. Alhamdulillah. Then comes the most beautiful gift ever from Allah to seal the bond we preserved. The birth of Nur Atiqah Amani. Cute baby girl to complement our smart boy Muhd Izzuddin Zharfan. I am blessed with such a lovely family. Thank you Allah.

My third year in Penang was a revolution period. Ramadhan last year is the mark. No, couple of weeks before that. Most people call it a hidayah. Some people may call it a midlife crisis. For me, its more to finally be conscious again. I believe that everybody has somehow being approach by this hidayah from Allah only for us to deny that. Its may come in such a various way, even from a simple 15 to 20 minutes description of SIKSA DI PADANG MAHSYAR in TV programme Tanyalah Ustaz at TV9. The important thing is, what did you do when it comes approach you?

You can pretend like you don’t know anything and continue to live in denial or even take it easy as you really think you can live much much much more longer to entertain it later on your life. What if you only have a quarter of what you already have to live up for? Do you think you really have enough time to offset all the wrongdoing you do throughout the years gone by? If you have much more less left?

From that point, I decided to reset everything. Seeing things from a very different perspective now. Really hope I always in the guidance of Allah. I wish Allah will continue to show me the right path and do not turn me back into the darkness.

So here in Penang I found myself. I am sure Allah knows best what is best for me and I am confident that there is more to come waiting for me back there in my comfort zone. While it was a lot of fun here in Penang, deep down I agree that being there will suit me more with my new perspective.



they all still there at the very same standard.

a wiseman once told us that it is one of the hope that every single person of this place could benefit all the experiences gain to be a better person. so that everybody could improved throughout the time spent in this place. so that everyone could be well equip with all the necessary and relevant skills, knowledge or even expertise. so that anytime, if there is anywho who want to walk away from this place they can walk away as a better person. more competent.

after all these years, they or maybe she. she still at the very same stage when i left. still the very same person as she enter this place.

what a waste!

Demang – ‘person’ & ‘place’ may be wrongly used here.